29 ..almost 30..really????

hey guys,

oh well now i really turned 29 years 2 days ago....wtf is it really 29 years old i first saw the light?
alot happened, i am now sitting in my house alone, without good internet ( there was a big storm last night and internet and telephone is not working ) and only with my wireless stick, and drinking a good bottle of bacardi and thinking about what will happen in future and what happened in the past...

actually after thinking really long about this the whole day, the only thing i can come up with is that i dont really care what fuckin happened, its just im portant what WILL happen from now on,
oh well and we got all that in our hands...do u guys know the song by janet jackson -
got till its gone??? its amazing, just click on the name and it will guide u to it..

why is it so good?
well, one thing i learned is that 99% of people in this world are selfish and most of them dont even know it, they really think that they want the best for everyone else, but thats not true...

make a test, take a look at some pictures, who are u searching for first? for you!!!! its always you, you are searching for.. no one else... when someone attacks you, whats the first thing you want to do? its defend yourself right? you want to correct the person, because he/she is wrong...instead of thinking about WHY is he/she doing that...they must have a reason right? i mean, why do they think that? why dont they think u are a nice person? or u do the thing right, that u disagree with??? most of the time we dont even think about it..we just think: that person attacked me and he/she is wrong...i will fix that and then he/she will like me...... fuck that, it wont work....try to understand why the person thinks that and then work from there..dont u think thats more effektive, than tryng to convince the other person...and one important question yet didnt get asked: what if the person is right about what he/she says about you???but u didnt realize it yet? dont u wanna know what kind of person u really are?

these are thoughts i had like 1 year ago and believe me it was hard for me to cope with the answers, fuck it was really hard...but what happened was that i thanked everyone for everything they said and changed the way i am..not everything but the stuff that i could change and that i had infuence on....

i love life again, i love being me...
and it only took me 27 years to get there haha, thats good i guess ....

on a sidenote...we will invite a family to portugal that has no money and no possibilities and had a really hard time in the past, to visit our house in portugal... the family has nothing more to do than step into the plaine and come here...thats it, chris and me will care for the rest...
i loved the idea from the beginning and tho some people have told me that i am a fuckin idiot for doing this, people that i love and admire (sadly), i wll do it..not to get attention, not to make people like me, not to get loved more, but to see these 3 children at the beach, something thats more valuable than anything else...
i have a son too and he has the privilege to be with me in summer also, so why not give someone else the chance to get the same..```???? it will not hurt me much but it will give them alot of happiness..at least i hope so,...


wish you all good luck out there,,, may the best time of your life be ahead of you...

First week is over/some pics

Hi everyone,
I ll make it a longer Post I think and will include some Pics also.
Ok lets start with Poker:

The First week in Portugal is over tonight, and the results have been really nice, Chris and Me are up.....wait I`ll show you

not too bad for one week I guess...
We spoke alot about Pokerconcepts and I think we understand pretty well how the other guy plays in most spots...

On the sad site of life my girl had to leave me on wednesday, last week as her work started again on Thursday, last week....
But we made a really cool trip through Algarve, I love you so much Baby, it was such an amazing time....
Can't wait to see her in 15 days as she will stay here for 3 days then. yayyyyyy

so, our trip took us to Sagres and from there we pretty much walked our way back till Portimao and spent 2 days in Lagos,,....wow guys Lagos is amazing, you def should visit it. we had planned to only stay 1 day in every city, but we loved it so much in Lagos that we stayed there for 2 days in the end....

From there we walked to Portimao, and i can tell you it was really a freaking long trip...the funny thing is that we started to take lots of pictures at the beginning and were talking alot but then after about 4 hrs later noone talked anymore and we also did not make many more pics, looking at it today, its been really funny but we were sooo pissed while walking omg ;)

In summer my girl will be here with 2 good friends and I guess we will make a bigger trip..as we will be here as 3 couples...I can not wait for this to happen ;)


so, here are some pics,  from our trip...I dont have pics from the house, but will upload them tonight..

gl and see you all soon i hope

 This is a beach in the middle of Lagos, its insanely nice, and we walked there for about 1 hr and it just didn`t end at all

 Lagos in the morning...such a nice place

 This is Sagres, the most SW Point in Europe, the weather is sick, 5 km to the east and its super sunny, and here its cloudy and raining, 

 Yes, boattrips can be cold and wet ;) Love you baby

This is an old Compass, the Portuguise used to cartograph islands and countries they found, it doesnt look big on this pic, but it was really huge, blieve me, I think somewhere around 50m 

 Thats me daydreamin at the beach, it actually was a cold day, so we had to wear a sweater, but was really a nice day...

And that is our beach...isn`t it beacutiful??